Ummm. Ew.

I wrote my post about potential a couple of days ago as I was going through this internal struggle about staying at home vs. feeling the need to work. I thought I would sit on it before I posted it. Then I had my annual nightmare. For the past 12 years, I have had nightmares that begin around the end of July and continue till, oh, around Labor Day. They all revolve around the beginning of school. Sometimes I will have a dream that my classroom is a total wreck and the kids are about to come in for the first time. Or I'll have a dream that I can't find important paperwork or data for a meeting. I'll dream about being locked in at school, losing it at a presentation, hellion kids screaming around the hallways, being late on the first day. I've even had a nightmare where I had a "wardrobe malfunction" at work. Last year I had the dreaded nightmare- like clockwork- but when I woke up, I just laughed and sighed with relief bc woo hoo! - I didn't have to go to work!!!
But this year, the dream was different. It was a Back to School dream, yes- but not at all like the ones before. This time, in my dream, Sophia and Diego were just about to come home from their first day of school. They get home and we are having our afternoon snack when Sophia starts complaining that her head itches. I look underneath her hair at the nape of her neck and there I find the all these lice eggs- huge, white eggs that are wiggling and jiggling around. I'm talking mutant-like lice eggs that were about an inch long and kind of transparent. Then I see these claw like jaws bite through the eggs. Ew! Then Diego starts scratching at his head and he has lice also!!!!! Just thinking and writing about this horrible dream has me itching all over!!
Thankfully- the alarm clock went off and I escaped the nastiest dream I have ever had. It didn't take me long to realize, however, that my subconscience has begun to transition with my conscience... I am no longer at teacher. I am a mom. A mom with a terrible fear of lice!